Speechless

Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

Cause you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you

You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby

You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you

This post is for my SPECIAL rock! who's currently in love w HYUN BIN! Unbelievable? Well you'd better believe =D

Paula DeAnda feat. Baby Bash - Doing Too Much

: D
Left early today, my effing throat was irritating me so. & my reason on the green form was like, cough. Haha and everyone was like, phwoarrr like that also can. Yvonne & Luoshi left real early too, she's in Bangkok now, I think. Lucky stiff! I'm going end of year, w mum and her khakis. Oh well, shop shop shop!

Amath sucked like crazeeeeee >: ( I'm so going to fail. Basket :// I kept coughing so loudly and al, I swear Mdm Leow thought I was insane, that time during Geog exam, I was sleeping and she saw. Robyn tutored me yesterday night, I liked your muffins! Yumyum.

Nai nai's crying again! It's so getting to me urgggggggggh. All you evil-doers, leave her alone! And now she's touching Wang Lee Hom's poster. Aw I miss Jx muchmuch. Come back soon!

I keep letting people down lately, I feel. So if Han, you happen to read this, I'm sorry! For being such an ass, and I really miss you and all the laughter and fun! Socks, I don't know why, but I feel kind of guilty towards you as well, maybe because I'm not helping much. Lousy friend I am. >: (

Girlfriend! You're in my post today. Are you honoured? I love your skin, it's really nice. Stay happy always! You bring joy : D

Mel's read nice! She accompanied me & at least she cared.

Kthxbai.

Tags:

Simin. >:D:D : Fat chance! Seriously. It's it. Haha boo
toufuhater: Hunnnay loves too. Too much shit around me hur. Endure!
girlfriend: HI MY DEAR GIRLFRIEND! : D
CHRISTINE: haha christine! why's your name so big! you funky screamer! : D
robyin: heyyyyyy thx for th muffins! (:

can't you understand how i feel?
i'm so afraid of talking to you right now, do you even know how many times i have t think before talking about you. afraid of your replies, afraid you won't answer. i think and think so much, last time, you were the first person i'd tell. now, i dont even know if i can anymore.

that's it.
i'm giving up.
HEAR ME?????????

GIVING UP!
my spring day left me, now winter's here.

kimyubin, stop acting like you're so happy.
no one expects anything.

Teriyaki Boyz - Heartbreaker


The other side to Jo In Sung, the hottest man on earth!

Had potato w cheese for lunch, and pizza for dinner!
Oh here comes the ALMIGHTY-FAT-PIG.

Had piano at United Square, oh i feel so jazzzy.

Bio's impossible.



Kap w them tmr! : D
kgtg.
romancemybuks.

I love Han! She brings so much joy!
Sushi man & the gross-ew guy who digs noses.

Went to Kap t study w Han and Calvin today!
I had funnnnn : D

After so long, things are looking up?

imu.

How I wish I can come here now, smiling, telling you what a great day it has been..
But I can't.

Go away! Get out, leave.

Suddenly, I feel you're so fake. You'd do anything right? To get attention. People like you, will beat me always, because acting pathetic always works. Sucker, get a life. Stop counting on people's advice or what shit, I know what you want? I know, but you aren't going to get it! Hear me? No, you won't.

You! I'm really sorry I'm such a lousy friend. Maybe you're right, you're friendless? Cos I suck too much. I'm sorry, and I love you but I don't know how to tell you anymore. Because actions speak louder than words, but I'm all words, all feelings. I just don't know how to be a good friend >: (

Han! :D Thanks. I'm not ashamed to tell the whole world what a great person you are. You're great! My only best friend with the same name as me.

Maybe goodbye's a beauty, there's no reason to try anymore.

1.Full name: stephanie kim yu bin!
2.Name backwards: nib uy mik einahpets
4. Meaning of name: happy wappy!
5. Nickname: haha too many?
6.Screen name: kim yu bin
7. D.O.B: 1908
8.Place of birth: secret
9. Nationality: singaporeeeeean
10.Current location: place called earth DUH
11.Star sign: leo
12.Religon: catholic! : D
13.Height: P
14.Weight: im too fat!
15.Shoe size: like i'd go measure? oh my feet's 40 cm. rrriiiggghhtt
16.Hair color: haha it's dyed la! fake.
17.Eye color: brown
18.Who do you look like: myself? lol
19.Innie or outtie: innie
20.Lefty or righty: righty
21.Gay, straight, bi or others: duh im straight!
22.Best friends: tinys, girlfriend, pipi, toufuhater, ginny, nestie, tine
23.Best friends you trust most: mr toufuhater!
24.Favourite pals: look at q 22 please you dumb ass
25.Best friend of opposite sex: toufuhater & wl!
26.Best buddies: ask me one more time and i'll kick you
27.Boyfriend or girlfriend: im a boyfriend!
28.Crush: haha i'm not telling!
29.Parents: they're like godsend. i MUST love them.
30.Worst Enemy: you? haha
31.Favourite online guy: =D
32.Favourite online girl: feliciatohsinhui
34.Craziest friend: ginny!
35.Advice friend: my lovely HAN! & tiny head too (: -ha li mah!
36.Loudest friend: ashley the HOT.
37:Person you cry with: used t be wl.
38.Any sisters: nope
39.Any brothers: yep, one.
40.Any pets: currently? no
41.Any disease: haah get a life. NO!
42.Pager: like hello! it's 2006
43.Personal phone line: no prank calls please
44. phone: samsung
45.Lava Lamp: i want one!
46.Pool or hot tub: poooooool
47.A car: i want one!
48.Your personality: ordinary
49.Driving: eighteen! can't wait =D
50Room: im alone? music's on. it's loudddd.
52.Whats missing: my heart?
53.School: dss
54.Bed: queeeeeen.
55.Relationship with parents: half and half. i'll strive!
56.Believe in yourself: yep! : D i'm a believer!
57.Believe in love at first sight: n o
58.Good listener: yes i am
59.Get along well with parents: sometimes
60.Save e-mail convos: nah
61.Pray: yesssss
62.Believe in reincarnation: nope
63.Make fun of people: haha why not!
64.Like to talk on the phone: yep!
65.Want to get married: i do
66.Like to drive: what's not to like
67.Motion Sickness: nope
68.Eat stem of broccoli: yes.
69.Eat chicken with fork: ..
70.Dream in color: black and white
71.Type with your fingers on home role: home role? haha you're insane
72.Sleep with stuff animals: nope. runny nose
73.Next to you: no one
74.On the walls of your room: mcfly poster and schedules & pics of me&friends!
75.On your mousepad: lapmate
76.Dream car: too early
77.Dream date: long walks and talks
78.Dream honeymoon spot: tahiti!
79.Dream husband or wife: he's all i'm looking for!
80.Bedtime: night. or maybe morning? haha night owl!
81Under your bed: dust?
82.Single most important question: whatchu doing? haha typical
83.Bad time of the day: afternoon. the frickin heat gets me.
84.Your worst fear: RATS!
85.The weather is: coooool
86.Time:11.12pm
87.Date: no idea
88.88Best trick did on someone: haha bucket full of chocolate
89.Theme song: when it all falls apart
90.Hardest thing about growing up: bloody pms!
91.Funniest experience: haha too many
92.Scariest experience: shhhhh
93.Silliest thing you have ever said: haah did a dare, sing at the top of my voice at 3 am.
94.Most desperate and funniest thing i have done to get the opposite sex : haha i dont know. ran away? hoping he'll chase?
95.Scariest thing while you are with your friends: haha that im invisible suddenly?
96.Worst feeling: despair
97.Best feeling in the world: love
AND NOW, CHOOSE SIX TO DO THE QUIZ!
: huldah! christine! halimah! yuting! sp! socks!

18th August 2006
All the joy and fun we shared! : D

I'm heavily broken,
dont know what to do.
Can't you see that I'm chokened?
& I can't even move.

Heyyyyy! : D I'm real pooped up now but I'm still going to update so I won't forget. These are precious memories.

So.. I'll skip the school part cos we all know it's just so damn boring.

Was supposed to go out all togther, but I guess the heat was affecting everyone hur. Luoshi, Mel and Yt went home first. It's alright guys! Han & I bus-ed to Cck to meet Min! : D From there, we went Raffles Place first, then we realised Suntec's at City Hall lah. Haha and we were stalking this woman! It was damn funny lah, this woman, she was sleeping the train sitting up super straight. Haha uhm yea so we decided to stalk her. But she went somewhere else and we got tired of it so we gave up. Teeheexzxzx.

We walked alot man, my legs were hurting like crazy. & I don't know why, but I had alot of currents in me?! Haha what the hell! I kept shocking them. We walked the underpass and all, then Min wanted to see Roxy stuff. Loads of things I like! Shocking pink : D Suntec next! I was starving so I kept wanting to eat. We ate mac at a corner, super ... ... haha. I love them! After that, we bought Yami Yoghurt. Yumyum. Then Min saw Hong Yu Yang, he's not even handsome lah ew -.-, she got excited! Then she went to chase him(!!!??!), I couldn't be bothered. She's damn funny lah! Keep asking us to hurry up and all, she wanted to take a photo or what. But in the end, we chickened out.

The fountain! We all made a silent wish and walked around three times. I know my wish is impossible but oh well, I had plenty funnnnnn. Then, we went into Adidas and all the other shops, took loads of pictures! : DDDD So fun! : DDD Haha lala. I forced them to go into Toy's R Us, yay! : D haha I can spend a whole day in there. We hugged this huge teddy bear! Effing cute! I want it >:( Candy floss and water from starbucks, my brilliant idea haha wadtheshit

Esplanade! Library first. I'm not a library, I'm too noisy. Everyone was looking. >:(
Outdoors! I love the feeling. Love in the airrrrrr, haha yea, thinking too much. We went on the boat ride! Vids and all. Happy wappy! The merlion and I saw a rainbow! :D sigh.

We were super super tired. Walked all the way to Mrt and all. Haha super super killingmylegs.
Blisters and all. Then lalalaa I'm tired.

Bye

I'm not happy.

I skipped school today! Calvin told me my birthday's on the same day as Bill Clinton. That brought a smile to my face, I don't know why. It made me happy, I'm a weird one. Haha.

&& Girlfriend! I changed my skin in five minutes hokay! : D
You took one whole hour! I'm certified to laugh at you, but I won't cos I'm a kind soul. Teehee.

Went to the doctor with Gran, Mum and Ice this morning. Stinks like crazy. I seriously hate the smells of hospitals. Pffftt. & Mum spent seventy plus in a pharmacy. Don't ask me how, she's crazy. Hawhaw. She almost threw up while throwing goat milk sample, I kind of liked it though.

Math! It's making me nuts! Hopefully Han or Gabriel will come early and teach me teach me! : D
I'm so irritated by my helplessness, endless nights of tears and all that shit. I've had enough >:( phwoarrrr i'm going to escape!

GL owes me five dollars! We were arguing over the fact that BoA is korean. He insists she was jap. HAHAHAHA LOSER!

Kay bye.

got to pick myself up, where do i start?
cause i can't turn to you when it all falls apart.

right now, i destroy everything that brings hope.
i guess i have to break my heart so there's no more feelings.

i cannot take it anymore!
all these stress i've been feeling lately.
wanna know why i'm smiling so much,
why i scream or talk so loudly and laugh so much?

because it hurts.
hurts like i dont know what.

but them. friends. they bring true joy
and i thank Him for them.

she said, "you recover well."
yeah rrriiiggghhhhttt.

sorry if you see this and you go, damn she's pms-ing or something.

sometimes i feel life is so damn unfair. yes i'm screwed.
happiness will find it's way to me soon, i hope.

"up to you if you wanna keep feeling this way."
YOU made me feel this way.

I'm so happy, it's scary! HAHA kidding lah.

Out with Han after school, cos tiny head has that thing going on. Superfly funny hokay! Cheese MADNESS! Haha i shan't elaborate if not someone will kill me hur.

Damn whutttt lah! Then when I said the person's name, Han was all, "He's behind you la!" I thought she was kidding okay. HAHA ahdsgasgah zomg, I totally didnt know! I said his name somemore! Shit lolzx. Seventh month, don't play play! HAHAHAHA I had a great time today!
Postcards, Koufu, korean lala, and the cheese stuffffff. tsktskzxzxzx.

CHUWAEHOH :D

I was daydreaming during math today, ... okay, sleeping too. Got called twice. Haha. Stupid Girlfriend, keep reminding me.

K off to spring day!

happy wappy

(edited)
ps, sorry silly! sorry for not replying you and calling you silly. (:

Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra - First Love into Addicted To You

Today witnessed the baptism ritual of my granny at ACS Barker. I loved the mass and the pastor. Missed Amanda and all of them too! I love my family :D Went to sixth avenue for lunch. Salted egg crabs were yum!

Dad dropped me off at the Changi Airport, Terminal 1, but they were at Terminal 2 so I took the skytrain! :D was damn excited. But it's like not the same anymore. It's so slow and boring right now. Bought a really pretty hairband from Minibits Korea. It's like fourteen. Finally saw them, we went to Mac to study! I did math todayyyyy. I suck, basket :(

I LOVE TINY HEAD & I MISS TINY LEGS!


HAHAHAH calvin!!!

Lily Allen - Smile

I've changed my blogskin again! :D Super fickle. Haw haw.

Friday 11th of August
Went for doctor's appointment in the morning. Woke at eight, feels good! :D I get to miss math too! I hate JPL! He's just so effing irritating. When he speaks, Feena sleeps, and when he stops, she wakes up. Haha I love sitting beside her! Had chinese oral! & I liked the jelly thing POWERsocks ate. Real yum! After that, went to Koufu at WM with the tinys! We ate our noodles, yumyum.
Talked for abit, dim sum craving! Off to my house, we watched "She's the man". I watched it like so many times lah! Superfly funny hokay? Then, we went swimming! Had lots of fun with them! Tinys rock! BFF<3>:( Fried brain anyone? Haha monkeypoo. Laadeedah, then had lit tuition! && off to United Square for piano lesson. I like the teacher's nails. So nice! :x Haha, seriously. I'll work like crazy on my piano! :D Hoi tin! and i want that phone on display >:( I saw this great Hello Kitty shop! Yvonne will go crazy! I shall save up to collect once again!

Nai nai's getting mysterious cuts. I'm scared for her. Aish, she told me not to tell mum and I wiped the cuts and plasters and all. Gosh, what's wrong? She's going to get baptised tmr! Loveyaaa AHMA! So I'm going to ACS Barker's church. Sorry Gerri! Shit, effing j. Aish, wish me luck! I'll need it. Prolly gonna study at airport! Yay!

Kay cya!
Take great care.

Journey
by Angela Zhang/Jill Xu

It's a long long journey
Till I know whera I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you ... to you

Repost :l

Happy Birthday Singapore! :D
You're such a young nation, only forty one.

Tuesday 08th of August
So I went to school real early today (: dad's car though. 0615 people! Fall-ed in. (I ate this chocolate bread which tasted real nice!) Then we made our way to band room, set up instrument, and everyone was busy looking smart and putting on jackets & stuff. Mad rush! We all rushed down as the parade was starting. I didn't faint. Phew!

Up to the hall for the concert. Band was like the last item so we were all mucho free! : D I liked Panther's dance the most. & I don't care if they copied or not. But for the costume stuff, Puma's was like the nicest. Haha yep. Then we swayed along with Choir while they were performing, but the Choir thought we were like being sarcastic and all. No okay! Overall I had fun :D

Yada yada. Packed up and all. Went to eat with the Panther House people! They sort of like, were the big winners! I bet Girlfriend was damn happy hur! Cheers! They had seventy dollars worth of KFC vouchers and they used it up! Pigs or what! Haha just kidding

Then it was really funny! Because after that, Han, Jun, Rujun and me went walking around. So we seriously wanted to go into the arcade lah! But only I was not in school uniform. Then, the first time we got in, we got caught lah duh! Then, Jun went to borrow clothes and all, we still got caught! Damnit :/ The last time, Jun even used a tube as a skirt. HAHA made us all crack up lah! Damn funny. Butbut we still got chased out. In the end, Jun was sooo fed up, she like kept scolding the guy. Haha it was really funny.

Reached home nearing four. Bathed and all, then it's movie with Toufuhater!
We watched Pirates and the Carribeans. Fanny was super irritating >: ( I swear I almost wanted to kill her please. Wrath's a sin, NEVER commit. yes! perserve. Then Toufuhater and me baked a fruit cake. It was totally tasteless I tell you. Laugh so frickin much! :D Such a great friend of mine.

Alright, shall go offfff now.

Let the man go yo!
It's gone, gone forever.

i just don't belong. the question is, what am i to dmb? just a stupid stupid tenor sax player. like they said, no one's indispensable. i dont ask for anything. i just wish, (i can only wish) i was part of them. one of them. yea, wishful thinking. i know i just transferred in and all, so i prolly don't count. but you know, i had fun and i learned alot.

when my junior, a sec one told me that she thought i was only a sec two, it was like, okay, so i seriously didn't look like i belonged. it actually hurt. though i see my name there on their blog, so what? mentally, i'm not there. i know i'm not there. no one takes me seriously. yes, i admit, i used to hate band, hate waking up so early on a lovely saturday morning doing footdrills. why? cos i sucked at it. i really really couldn't adapt. but slowly, i started to enjoy it somehow. but.. nothing i say will matter anyway. yes, go ahead, pity me. sympathise with me, that's all you can do right? i know, you know, we all bloody know.

i'm not in gsb anymore, yet i'm not really in dmb. what the hell am i doing? i don't get it. i don't belong anywhere. maybe i should just quit and stop trying. i'm really trying, can't you see? oh whatever.

the only one who's there but not really there.

Haha I'm going to put aside all the sadness I have inside and start afresh!
Go back to the beginning, when everything was sweet.
Ignorance is a bliss. True to an extent. What I want to do now is live life to the fullest!
We can leave that all till next time!

15 in fourteen days! Who's going to get an IC? me Me ME MEEEEEE!
Excited for nothing. Haha what can I do with an IC anyway? I'm like grounded for the rest of my life lah! Gr, overprotectiveness! They ruin everything! POO PUI!
Oh well, make lemonade with lemons :D

Money! I neeeeeeed..

Lately, it's been all parades and rehearsals in the hot hot hot sun.
>:( The fever's out to get me!
I wanted to go get Yvonne's present today with the rest.
Damnit got piano later. I'm really nervous.
Wish me luck, but why can't she see it's not what I really really want?

Huldah: You all are the waves and I'm the rock.

HAHAH she's a rock!
Huldah said that while we were all swaying yesterday.

I miss nestie! and bestie!
But we've all lost it I suppose.

Toufuhater called in the morning and was all perky.
Sorry for dampening your mood! I really want to catch a movie today, seriously.
Click's good and everything but but but but... I had restrictions.

And my english is weakening with each second. During lit, we had to make this poem.

Mine's like...
(really lame)

Will you catch me as I fall?
I know you will.
The sacred promise.
The old man flashed a toothless grin.
His only wise eye sparkled.
Singapore will always be where I belong.
Bury me here or I shall not die.

Hahahaha damn spas right?
After I finished, HAN pointed out that it was supposed to about celebrating Singapore's birthday? Ah whatever. I couldn't think of another one and I was sitting beside Jun.

& Adeline's my girlfriend? Haha I'm a boyfriend now :D

Okay, off to watch Il Mare.

The Lake House's a remake of Il Mare, the original version. It's korean!

kbai.

etiqa! i think she's really pretty.

i miss debbie man!

haha poor matt.

dear gerri : D

ice kah chang at scotts!

it's me! but a long time ago.

ringggg

HAN's tai tai hair.

nai nai

jurrrel

me w specs. darn ugly.

super cute!

tiny hand & tiny head.

..

etiqa& me!

kim & HAN's hand.

bloody nerd alert!

etiqa's phone.



this.is.so.random.

oh well.


you:

yes, i feel like such a bother to you right now. like you just can't wait to get me off your back. what happened t the sweet lil thing. vanished. goodbye.
i miss you badly. that pissed face & great back view. goodbyeeeee.